butterfly bag from Urban outfitters!

Green wedges from Minou and blouse from The Box!!

Love all my buys! Just thinking of them makes me happy...hehe....relieves me of some stress. But the sad thing is, i cant spend anymore this month.....gotta save up for the rainy rainy day...which can be pretty often these days.....like the $200 that just flew outta my wallet out of a sudden without warning...sianzzzzzzzzzz........

Feeling kinda down too.....dearie not really hue-ing me these days. He doesnt seem to care as much for me as before. Like yesterday, when we were going back to his room to watch project superstar, there were already tons of people inside the room - YX's friends. And i couldnt see the TV at all. He didnt care. Instead, it was YX that cared. YX told his friends to move over....so harsh that none of them dared to block my view after that......it made me partly happy, partly sad. And while watching the show, dearie didnt hue me either...just played his stupid maple story. Damn sad la alright.....

I wonder if we've been together for too long he's starting to forget about me...i mean...he's really starting to take me for granted i feel. I mean...i dont mind doing all those things for him but he doesnt seem to appreciate all that i'm doing. Like the time when he didnt even ask me whether i wanted a place in his club. Fine, it's HIS club...but he didnt even bother to ask...and just went ahead with his own recruitment. I feel as if im transparent. Last time, he always asks me for opinions and stuff. Nowadays, i had to find out things thru the emails he sends me through the club email. Very well.........it just makes me sadder........

I'm getting more depressed as im typing here....though he keeps saying he cares, he hues....but then actions not realli = words. That's what made me really sad. When i tell others, they seem to make a really big deal outta it...but my dearie dun seem to care....dun seem to have any reaction....seems to take it for granted that i will be there. I mean i will.....right?