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Monday, August 01, 2005

what do friends mean......

Suddenly...i feel kinda depressed. I wonder what do friends really mean? HAving FRIENDS who are virtually non-existent and barely makes effort to maintain the friendship....are they really considered real friends? Sigh....it's not that i wouldnt wanna consider them as my friends anymore...it's just that when you barely meet up with them, it just defeats the purpose of having them isn't it? Other than meeting up, conversations over MSN are also as rare as the occurence of a purple cow....

Oh well.....people i consider my so-called best friends havent appeared in front of my eyes for the past 3 months....despite me making the effort to ask them out. Except Eileen, who constantly messages me on MSN to make conversation. I do appreciate that, really...even if it's just a short "how are you doing?" kinda conversation, at least it showed that she does care. And we did meet up once too....considering that she's only in Singapore for like 2 times a year. So meeting her twice a year is already enough. Other friends, despite them being in Singapore 24/7, 365 days a year, they barely have the time to meet me like even 3, 4 times a year.

Kinda sad isn't it? I feel sad for myself. I miss my besties so much....really....but it seems like meetups dont work out everytime.....

Good thing i still have friends whom i dont consider best friends, but always make the effort to ask me out, talk to me over MSN, and have in-depth conversations with me. I really appreciate that.

What are best friends for...if best friends just come and go as they like, make no obvious effort in being there, and they appear much less often that other friends? I really dont know. I just feel upset and disappointed. Feel like crying.............and no one will see that.......

allie ♥ 10:57 AM