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| Monday, June 29, 2009 |
I don't feel like doing anything...ANYTHING at all... Leave me alone...or enter at your own risk cos I bite... |
| allie ♥ 11:13 AM |
| Friday, June 26, 2009 |
RAWRRRR |
| allie ♥ 10:24 AM |
| Wednesday, June 24, 2009 |
I wonder who understands...is there anyone who does? The true reasons why i'm doing all these are locked inside my heart, only known to those who seek the truth. It hurts...so much...self waning away and the hurt reigning over me. It sucks....and I can only wish it passes. If the heart don't hold the key, I wonder where else to find it. Sometimes it's easy to look on the surface and fail to dive beneath that facade for the truth. Or perhaps, the truth is not what is desired...but rather, the overhanging facade. I'm not perfect. I'm human, flawed and real in flesh. It's beyond my means now.... |
| allie ♥ 10:38 AM |
| Sunday, June 21, 2009 |
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| allie ♥ 10:50 PM |
| Friday, June 19, 2009 |
Tried to understand things from your point of view...some things i do see, some i don't... Is it really like what you said? The piercing words forming a sharp contrast against those words said months before.... Sorry....for being such a disappointment to you... |
| allie ♥ 11:08 AM |
| Wednesday, June 17, 2009 |
If the closest people to me don't....i dunno who else will... Tears... |
| allie ♥ 5:16 PM |
Went to sleep in shock, reeling from the effects of the words that flashed acrossed my eyes... Alarm rang and i went back to sleep, thinking that if i never woke up, nothing would change... Once i woke up, everything seems to be status quo...and yesterday's conversation stuffed in the bag of archives... Happy breakfast...Happy Day ahead...it seems... Now, everything crashed.....yet again... Pinch me, am i awake or asleep? I don't seem like a regular human being anymore... I just need...need people to believe that I know what I'm doing...that's all... |
| allie ♥ 12:46 PM |
| Tuesday, June 16, 2009 |
Lost.......in my own little world.... |
| allie ♥ 1:41 PM |
| Saturday, June 13, 2009 |
The collage left for me, the long post....overwhelming me.... I'm sorry..... |
| allie ♥ 12:14 AM |
| Friday, June 12, 2009 |
It's like having insight into another world...i know, truly know. Am i being blind, stubborn or just staying true to myself? I dunno...never been in this position before... Sometimes i feel things could be easier if i weren't who i am...but i am already who i am now...and how is that to be changed? I don't mean for all this to happen...thinking back on the route i've taken to get here...i think much has dropped out along the way... Perhaps i'm being seen as unfeeling, hard-hearted...i think if you know me, you'll know how exactly i'm feeling now. The carefree, smiling me is just a facade for the complexed emotions running through my veins and heart. My heart melted when i saw those pictures and read those words...yet there are things that i can't do at this point. Just wanna be accepted for who I am right now, if i can't be accepted wholly now, what about the me of the future? The continuous process of discovery and acceptance is not going to get any easier...... Lost.... |
| allie ♥ 2:24 PM |
| Monday, June 08, 2009 |
突然发现站了好久 不知道要往哪走 还不想回家的我 再多人陪只会更寂寞 许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过 我的快乐要被认可 委屈却没有人诉说 夜把心洋葱般剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么 为什么脆弱时候 想你更多 如果你也听说 有没有想过我 想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我 好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落 要怎么附和 舍不得又无可奈何 如果你也听说 会不会相信我 对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我 跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 懂我的人就你一个 想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔 Can't see beyond the veil of tears. Sometimes i feel silly, but i'd like to think that's part of who i am....i can't help but keep giving...perhaps till i can no longer take it.. Mummy and Daddy made alot of sense. But sense to me can only go so far. It's not that i didn't know. I knew, all the while, but still chose the path i took...and still will choose the same path if given a choice. To me, if only everything can be explained in words...but it can't...love and logic don't seem to go hand in hand. I'll still choose to think the best of people...that what happened wasn't by plan but by chance. I'm vulnerable, i know...unless i see a need to change, i'm comfortable this way... Girl needs to jia you.... |
| allie ♥ 12:57 PM |
| Sunday, June 07, 2009 |
Chik Chik, daddy has gone away for awhile...mummy will take care of you for now...
Daddy told me i always give too much of my heart away...perhaps i do, but that's what makes me real and that's what makes me me. All i can say is that i've given it my all...dreams once again come crashing down on me...... |
| allie ♥ 7:50 PM |
| Thursday, June 04, 2009 |
Perhaps it all boils down to a choice that's to be made. Even if i can't be happy, seeing others around me happy makes it all worthwhile, doesn't it? The wave of joy and gladness will eventually spread to engulf me in it. I figured that in both incidences, there are things that shouldn't be said, no matter what the circumstances are. Perhaps i do think too much, like i was recently told. But still, that's what makes the me today, doesn't it? The person i really should be honest with is myself. Even if i can be truthful to others, if i'm not honest with myself, it's not going to help. I dunno how to be completely selfish and go for what i truly want, but I think i know what to do....follow that peace from within my heart...i truly truly hope, that everyone will be happy after this. If God opens the door, no one can close. If He closes the door, no one can open it. Love, allie |
| allie ♥ 9:42 AM |
| Tuesday, June 02, 2009 |
perhaps happiness can be found elsewhere and not in me.... speechless.... |
| allie ♥ 11:52 PM |
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