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Friday, April 16, 2004

"Back to the simple things. Today, simplicity is your key to having the most successful and satisfying day. That means you'll want to avoid situations that seem overly complex. Instead, choose to do things in the simplest manner possible. It's also a great day to focus your time on favorite places, activities and people. "

Hmmmm....this puzzles me again. Had a really loooooooooong talk with him yesterday until like 6 am this morning....cleared up some stuff already. Well....in response to yesterday's incident, he said that he actually meant to pay for the whole movie thing, so he didn't expect me to back him back. He said he was surprised that i actually paid him and was taken aback and didnt know what to do, so he took it, and asked me the stupid question. Well....i really have no idea what to say to this man. It seems like the problem to him was the question part. He said that he should have taken it with no questions asked. Well....to this point i couldn't stand it anymore. I told him, forgive me for being straight....and just went on giving him my piece. Told him that if he meant to pay for the whole thing, he would have, regardless of whether i had given him money or not, and even if i had, he would have refused. The fact that he actually took it meant that he didn't really mean to pay for the whole thing. Secondly, if he had just took the note without saying anything or whatsoever, it would have showed much less courtesy than the earlier incident, would have irritated me even more then. Haha...upon saying this....he said that he felt so dumb...and that he had just done the most stupid thing in the world. Told me that he really didn't mean what he did today. Oh well.....i think he really does not mean it....but somehow...the incident still reflects a certain part of him....at least in my point of view. If he really meant to do something, i don't think his decision will waver so damn easily. Oh well....

He told me..."Allie.....i think i become dumb when i'm with you". Haha....i dunno what to say. But somehow i do think that to a certain extent it can be pretty true. There was once when we were on our way down for dinner...and he dropped by his room to get his wallet. He went into the room, three times....and got his phone..keys and so on. We started walking down....and he realised.....that....he has forgotten his wallet. Oh well.................i seem to be making him uncomfortable.....i wonder why....

He kept apologising over the incident....said that it was dumb and all that.....then we ended up talking alot. Haizz...he asked me the question....again.....something about whether eddie will end up with miss paige. Haha.....latest version....better than last time the niu lang and zhi nu one....duhh. I said that if these incidents continue to happen......can forget about it la......and i mean it. Then he said something about asking his roomie to liquid paper him away...huh....dont make sense at all to me...i hate it whenever he make no sense....but aniwae...haha. He asked me about my previous relationship.....well...i told him....about why it has put me off guys for so long and that my perceptions on guys and relationships has changed dramatically because of that. Somehow, this sorta kickstarted a really nice conversation. Was really fun....talked alot...learnt alot about him....and stuff.....both good....and bad stuff la i guess. And there was this self-evaluation part...when we evaluated each of our good and bad points...hmmm.....

Can't believe i managed to wake up at 7 45 today. Went for lesson and everyone was wearing black!! Damn cool i feel...and he was appreciative after all...hee. Lesson wasn't very interesting....cos i was switched off for most of the time....woke up towards the end...and found some arguments quite interesting. Think todae's debate on animal rights was interesting....and somehow i do feel that there is a certain bias in some of their arguments. They are arguing saying that animals such as dogs and cats should be given rights....but somehow....animals like poultry seem to be exceptions from the rule. It really puzzles me....i mean....animals are animals.....but why the double standards when recognizing their rights? Some said that because dogs and cats are more sentimental and develop feelings towards humans....but i feel that that is subjective. In societies where having dogs and cats as pets are the norm, people might feel strongly against abusing them, killing them...and will fight strongly for their rights. But in areas where these animals are being slaughtered for food, and that is their norm in society, then this becomes a different story. Cats and dogs hence become "poultry" to them. So in their case, does that mean that cats and dogs shouldn't have animal rights animore?

Haiz....can go on and on about this.....oh well. Never felt so strongly for animal rights anyway...perhaps because of my lack of attachment to animals. I mean...i do like certain animals...but dont realli come into contact with them too often to feel too attached. Maybe this will change in the future.

Regarding his incident...just hope that it doesn't happen again. Somehow i hope that he can really let his guard down and be natural when going out with me. Or else it would seem like i will never get the real person behind it. time to do work......wish me luck....

allie ♥ 6:48 PM