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| Monday, February 04, 2008 |
Mummy's birthday is on wednesday. But we went today cos it was the last day of operations for no signboard seafood, and so we went. As usual, we had crabs! As well as our favourite champagne chicken, asparagus and hong kong mee! Dad eating  Mum and bro .jpg) Stir fried asparagus...yummy! .jpg) Champagne chicken...it's really good! .jpg) Fried Hong Kong mee .jpg) Chilli Crabby! With my favourite fried mantou! .jpg) My plateful of crab shells =X .jpg) Was feeling terrible before and after the meal...didnt really talk much at the dinner table...though i tried to make conversation at times. Glad that mummy looks happier these days...and bro was also not so attitudinal today. Though we had a slight argument earlier...but as usual, we laughed it off. When i asked mum what she wanted for her birthday. She said "I just want you all to be happy". Tears threatened to fall again...i just wanna be left alone. Why do i get hit time and time again. On the ride home, i realised how easy it was if i were to call upon my mental strength to shut things out. It's like snap, and it's gone, things cleared, everything's fine. But at times when i allow myself to relax, everything comes back, flooding me with emotions, feelings, memories. It's tiring. It's a neverending struggle. It hasn't ended for me, i guess for him it probably did. Sometimes, it feels like an uphill battle, and i'm not moving at all...stuck, trapped, unable to move. This sux...yet people keep telling me that only time can heal. I dunno...i dunno anymore... |
| allie ♥ 11:07 PM |
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