"You can take the pressure. Who's laughing now? Wave and thumb your nose at them."
OOps...i forgot his birthday...really...big mistake...i know...but i did! Oh well....all along thought his bdae was sunday ma...how i know when i messaged him at 1245 am...he said his bdae was over 45 mins ago. I felt guilty....really....knew that he was somehow upset but trying to hide it...but i purposely didnt wanna show that i knew. So i just messaged him "happy belated then!" He replied...'oh...thanks'. Can see that he's upset...but i refuse to reply...haha...cos i know he will message me back again. Amazingly...i'm right....he said that he had been waiting for my bdae wishes for 24 hrs and 45 mins...oopz...make me feel guilty again. Oh well....said i seriously got it wrong and apologized....and he sounded fine in the end. After that. he asked me whether i would spend some time with him while his bdae "technically" still has two hours left. I said ok...then he came over lo. Talked for quite abit....about stuff....weird though...talked about his birthday...my new haircut(which he din realise....hmmph)....my brother....upcoming exams....o levels...a levels...haha i know....weird rite....but somehow...yeah...dat's how the conversation ended up to be about.
Oh well...i dont realli know why i agreed to meeting him...guess i felt rather guilty and wanted to make up for it...hmmm. Haha....know what....he said he had something for me....gave me a cute little rabbit shaped white chocolate. It was cute...and i didnt feel like eating...so i left it there. He said he felt like eating...so i told him to eat lo....but he refused at first cos he said that he ate alot of chocolate already. But in the end, he still ate it. Haha....somehow it feels kinda ironic huh...i think....cos he meant to give it to me but he was the one who ended up finishing it. Somehow, it feels like he doesnt realli mean to give it to me....oh whatever....sometimes i do doubt his purpose....if u give someone something and ended up benefiting yourself in the end without benefiting the person itself....what is the point? I realli wonder ya noe.....but this is not the first time. Haha...i just treat it as a joke...or else it will leave another bad impression for me again. It makes me wonder.....again...sighzz...
Sunday was another day wasted i guess...terrible me. Realli started studying only at 2 oclock. Watched some tv in between and stopped studying liao. Going to continue in awhile...hopefully it will be productive. I am realli getting worried about the exams now. time is really really very very tight at this point of time. 3 days to the exams. I think the first paper should not pose a big problem, but i am worried for those exams which the questions are given. Sigh....need lotsa good luck and best wishes man. Gotta give up a hell lot of sleep for the next few days....i think i can do it....just need to find some motivation...maybe kunda can hand me some? Haha... |
