& my world will be coloured.

Sunday, May 23, 2004

sIgHzz...wHy Am i DiSaPPoiNtEd...I sHuDn'T bE

*~...fEeLiN': dIsApPoiNtEd...~*

Pisces,
"Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own.

Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They sometimes exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually (depending on how they are aspected). They long to be recognized as greatly creative. They also dislike disciple and confinement. The nine-to-five life is not for them. Any rebellion they make against convention is personal, however, as they often times do not have the energy or motivation to battle against the Establishment.

Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world where their qualities can bring mental satisfaction and sometimes, fame and financial reward for they are extremely gifted artistically. They are also versatile and intuitive, have quick understanding, observe and listen well, and are receptive to new ideas and atmospheres. All these factors can combine to produce remarkable creativity in literature, music and art. They may count among their gifts mediumistic qualities which can give them a feeling that their best work comes from outside themselves, "Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places.

They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful.

In their employment they are better working either by themselves or in subordinate positions. Their talents are individual in a commercial business or similar undertaking. They would be afraid to manage more than a small department, worrying always that they would fail in a crisis. They can make fair secretaries and bookkeepers. Their sympathy equips them for work in charities catering for the needy, as nurses looking after the sick and as veterinary surgeons caring for animals. As librarians or astronomers they can satisfy their mental wanderlust, and their fondness for "faraway places with strange-sounding names" may turn them into sailors or travellers. Many architects and lawyers are Pisceans, and when the creative abilities are combined with gifts of imitation and the ability to enter into the feelings of others, Pisceans find their fulfillment on the stage. Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. They may find an outlet for their creativity as caterers, and are said to make good detectives because they can imagine themselves in the place of criminals and understand how their minds would work. In technical occupations they are well employed in dealing with anaesthetics, fluids, gases and plastics. Because of their lively versatility and inability to concentrate overmuch on any one project, Pisceans often simultaneously follow more than one occupation."

Had an eventful day yesterday. First went to Sentosa with the hall production people in the afternoon. Got tanned and all.....though i didnt realli want to...and an uneven tan line! That's why i dun wanna get tanned....sighzz. Didnt do much at Sentosa....played frisbee and volleyball...and went guy watching. But sadly....most of the guys were realli young and there werent much eye candy to talk about. Every girl was in a bikini and we saw quite a number of unsightly creatures there...haha...know i am kinda bad by describing them in that way but ya....saw gals like twice my size in a neon green bikini....those with no boobs trying to look at though they have boobs....and a gal with wore her shorts unbuttoned and ended up looking like she had burst her shorts. Haha...instead of looking at the guys....we were spending most of our time criticizing the girls we saw.

I thought the Sentosa trip was fine....though i did feel that the first one was more fun than this. Some people we generally dont realli like came and sorta dampened our spirits but we got over it. It was fun la...on the whole...enjoyed myself pretty much. But the sun was waaaaaaaaaay too hot....it was like...scortching hot and our feet felt like they were walking on a hot plate or something. Think it was the company that made it fun. Went with people like Mabel...ger...YX...Zack...Zod...Mini me...Xinyi...Bisheng...and some others....people that get along realli well....so it was fun=).

Was realli looking forward to the KTV actualli...haha....cos i love to sing! And i love to hear people sing too! Oh well....at least that is the case for CERtAIN people...haha. We went to sing KTV after the Sentosa trip. Matt and Terence came to join us..so did Bisheng's gf. It was the first time i see a room so packed with people. We had like....14-15 people at one point...and that was when our hall's number one hated person came. Sighzzz.....she looked like she wasnt very happy to join us....she could have not come what....her presence doesnt matter to us anyway. Haha....and we never realli acknowledge her presence aniwae...guess she felt kinda left out too....=P. KTV was fun too.....Bisheng and Matt sang realli well...so the "Suan Mei Zhis" sorta acted as their fan club members....waving lightsticks in the form of handphones with backlight along with the tempo of the songs. Haha.....damn high....and kinda stupid....but it was fun. Love to hear Bisheng and Matt sing....realli....though BS was kinda off yesterday. So was Matt.....but i still love to hear them sing...they sing soooooo well. Some other person was tryin very hard to impress with his vocals....well i shant name who...hiakz....yeah....and it incured the wrath of many....almost pressed the stop button to the song whenever that person sang. Not onli that person cant sing....but always try to sing together with Matt.....sighzzz.....that accentuates the differences even more...haha. BS's gf can sing pretty decently too..first time i actualli hear her sing....cool.

It was definitely a day full of activities. After KTV...we all went to my house for a mahjong session. 8 of us in total. Wow...i havent had so many people in my house for a mahjong session before. We had our usual mahjong kakis....matt mini me YX and XY....plus mabel ger and RJ....who came to play. It was realli hot in the house...i mean the temperature....sighzz....cos no aircon in the room we were playing in...realli sorry about that. Hopefully it wasnt too bad for them. I realli didnt wanna go to YX's house for mahjong yesterday night.....thats why i made them come to my house...haha. We had two mahjong tables....a gambler's table and a training table....spent time at both actualli....but it was at the training table that we totally went wild. Haha....dunno what happened but suddenly everyone was going crazy....talking nonsense..and acting in weird ways. It was realli entertaining though...mabel with her double cheese cheese burger thingy and ger with her portrayal of a filipino maid. Had lotsa fun laughing at them. XY YX and Matt were their usual cold selves...haha...cant help it la. Also talked about palmistry...which was interesting. Learnt a bit of stuff.....but still wanna find out more. Learnt that i'm supposed to have two boyfriends in my life....but then...it doesnt seem realli true cos i already had two before...and a third one. Learnt that my boyfriend or husband wont be too good looking...sighz....i hope it wont be true...haha....refuse to believe that aniwae. Yeah....and the sex drive thingy.....palmistry is interesting....maybe i shall go and read up on it.

Realli had a great day yesterday...dunno about the rest but at least i had fun. Didnt sing too nicely at KTV too..cos i had a sore throat....but i had fun listening to nice singing!!! Matt got into the finals of the 93.3 singing competition...cool! Good for him...guess it would be a moral boost for him. Got to know some things about other people thru palm reading too......which was quite cool...like XY's supposedly good looking boyfriend....haha. Yeah....but by the end of the day...i was dead beat cos i onli got to sleep at around 8 am this morning. A full day of activities from 1230 yesterday till 8 am today...wow......havent spent so much time together with mates like this before too. Realli hope that there could be something like this again....with more people...probably those from my hall OG too....like ZM and XM...and minus CERTAIN people...haha. think i shant be so bad animore.....shall keep the good memories and erase the bad.......hee.......

allie ♥ 9:47 PM