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| Friday, January 18, 2008 |
Had a talk with mummy yesterday night...all started when she decided to do something about how i was feeling. She said even when i dont tell her, she could tell that i'm unhappy. I teared. Even when looks or words were not exchanged, she seems to be able to read my feelings perfectly....though not what is going through my head. Nobody can read other people's thoughts completely...if they can it would be so meaningless...defeats the purpose of communication which makes bonds and relationships stronger. She told me alot of things which made total sense to me....made me tear even more cos it hit a nerve. Things which i could see...which were right in front of me...but it wasn't crystal clear. The more she said to me, the more i could see things clearly. And with whatever that has happened, i think soon i can believe in that conclusion that's to be made. Just need to piece together everything to form the story in my head...heh. It was one of those talks...when i just lay on my bed and listened, and listened, and listened. The only things i needed to do were nod or shake my head. Me love mummy. She told me 你应该很开心才对....which made me cry even harder. Was I not happy before? I wondered. She then went into the description of how i looked and acted months ago...and commented that i looked truly happy...but in recent months...she said my 精神不好...and lost weight. Was I? I wondered. I really dont know... I only knew i was tired at one point...cos i had to go out every day. Plus my client's crisis didnt help things at all. But i didnt say anything to her. She said 真正爱你的人不会伤害你的...which made me quiet for awhile. I guess...it should be true...though the truth always hurts. And she told me the people who really care...will show through their actions and words. Well this, i truly believe :). I know who cares and who doesn't. Who truly sincerely care, and those whose words mean nothing. Haha, talk is cheap, if not free. Well...really feel like taking a break from work to do some thinking and soul searching. Still need to wait for my colleagues to come back before i can go anywhere..=( A friend sent this song to me "Inconsolable" by Backstreet Boys. Haha...i think many people will remember them cos they were all our childhood idols! I remember liking Nick Carter when he was like 16 years old...cos my whole class find him cute! Now i do prefer the clean-cut Brian Littrell though. Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys I close the door Like so many times, so many times before Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor When I let you walk away tonight Without a word I try to sleep, yeah But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh If you were here right now, I swear, I'd tell you this CHORUS Baby I don't want to waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me 'Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you (to you) I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable I climb the walls I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no. I've memorised the number So why can't i make the call Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me In the possibilities CHORUS Baby I don't wanna waste another day (another day) Keeping it inside it's killing me 'Cause all I ever want it comes right down to you (to you) I wish that I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Oh oh no no no I don't wanna be like this I just wanna let you know 'Cause everything that I hold in Is everything I can't let go Oh oh oh oh can't let go Yeah yeah yeah yeah CHORUS 'Cause baby I don't wanna waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me (killing me 'cause) 'Cause all I ever want (all I ever wanted) Comes right down to you (to you), to you (to you) I wish that I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Oh oh oh oh Don't you know it baby I don't wanna waste another day I wish that I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah oh oh I'm inconsolable Whoa oh oh oh yeah yeah oh oh I'm inconsolable Oh oh yeah yeah Those familiar voices...ever so good to hear again. I'm probably gonna dig out more of their songs :). |
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