Today was a humbling day. The more I think I know, the more I actually don't know. Yet when things are revealed, lessons I learnt, I don't feel small or stupid. Instead, I feel enlightened and enriched.
I've always been reluctant to hate, trying to accept everything as much as I could. But a new lesson's learnt today - that if you don't hate something, you won't shun it. The tricks that were played with myself, playing on my strengths as well as my weaknesses, exploiting those very traits of mine, simply made this more pronounced.
You know, I realised I can say, but never mean "never". Cos who I am to say that I will never commit the same mistakes again? Never go down the same path again? I think it's ridiculous how people claim to promise and fail to keep their promises, yet keep making promises again and again just to keep breaking them each time. I think man ought to know their limits and stop uttering stupid words that bring chaos to the already chaotic world. Then again, man are the ones who brought chaos in the first place.
I've told myself before that I would be more careful, more selective next time. But in the end? *laughs* This shows how much wisdom and "intelligence" I have. I have alot more to learn....haha... |
